she is proud of me

i love to see the smile on her face. i feel pleased with myself, knowing that she is proud of her daughter. i understand the pain she has went through to bring me up. the bond between us grows stronger. i tell myself that although reality has not been kind to me, everything is worth it. it warms my heart to know that she cares and loves me. i wish i could be that welcoming and open as her to others.

There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game
It's easy.
There's nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be in time
It's easy.

rain rain rain

it is a cold night today. the day after tomorrow brought my mood to a new low level. i started to hug my pillow and think about a lot of stuff. how did things turn sour btw us? can there be any amendments? where should i go from here? will i end up living against what my dreams? i know these questions have no answers.

how i wish tomorrow is a weekend or holiday. i want to drink a cup of hot milo, listen to my slow songs playlist on my ipod and read my favourite book - kite runner. i want to spend the night quietly by myself in my cosy warm bedroom. i want to immerse myself into every single second of my life. dont wake me up from this dream, just let me sleep.

with a bang!

today is the first day of the hectic sem2 because the ever-clever me decided to start 6 modules in this sem. seriously, i dont have much time left during the weekdays. so friends, let's meet up on weekends okay?

although it was the first day back to the 8 to 5 routine, i was not relunctant or unhappy about it the day before or today. i am quite happy about it actually because finally it is time to move my engine again. like what goi said, i am a workaholic. anyway, the best part about this first day in school was i started off with a SMASH!!!

my dear FAT is leaving for canada in about 8 hours' time. this time round, her break was ultra short. it lasted for only 20 days!!! omg! how am i supposed to spend quality time with her? i din even go to her hse to slack our afternoons away, which was our favourite hobbies. anyway, she planned this pleasant surprise for me.

it was our first year as friends not celebrating my bday with me. it is kinda sad but it is okay cos we had an early bday celebrations today, right before lecture. i was kept in the dark and i had to say, those guys can really keep a secret. i was shocked to see eve and even worse, they threw me a cake full of whip cream on the top. worst still, i had to dig the candles out from that white mess with my mouth! from that moment onwards, i knew i would not be clean anymore. true enough, mh, my dearest ally smashed that foamy cake into my face!!! omg! in the end, i smelt of whip cream the whole day and nobody esp goi dared to stay near me. =( that cake is my 20th present cos the guys prepared 19 different presents for me. =) it is the BIG 2!!! and my bday is not even here yet.

the most happening thing is i just got home from wala wala. can u imagine students drinking on their first day of school?! i was not drunk but high. 3 bottles of beer and a huge plate of potato wedges for just 49 bucks. omg! happy hours should be my new friend. however, it is time to hold my drinking sessions. i shall try to drink less in this new year and destroyed the alcoholic image i had built last year. i dont want to end up in some consultations where i have to say, "hi! my name is karen and i am a alcoholic,". NO! i dont want to end up like that. besides, drinking will make me fat and so it is time for some exercise too!! i shall go swimming next wed since wed is my free day! =)

i just want to thank everyone which made my first day of sem2 such a special one! thanks for all the smashing, buying of sparkling juice, waking up early to buy the cheesecake, spending money and time on the 19 presents and making an effort to rmb this special day. thanks guys!!! i finally knew how great friends can be. on a last note, FAT, you should be in canada when you are reading this. hope everything will be fine for you in this sem and rmb our date in taipei! =) 2nd day in morning and it is a morning lecture. omhg!!! hopefully i will be in time.

2007

it is the third day of the brand new year 2007. yeah!!! i am still very excited over the new year. a new year means a brand new start. everything starts from scatch. i shall start studying real hard when school starts. all studying but no play makes karen a dull girl. although i maybe busy with my crazy timetable, please date me okay? i seriously dont want to spend every single second of the next 4 months in a library mugging away.

furthermore, i need to start saving lots of money. i shall not blog about the reasons because this will be a negative entry then. i just need to save money to first, go on a travelling trip with jf and kns in may. second, hopefully to start my long-awaited driving lesson. third, overseas exchange prog. lastly, braces. i dont have courage to pierce my ears but i have it to want to put braces on. interesting ya?

i want to go shopping but i am tired, lazy and sick of the crowds. i shall rest at home for a whole day and go shopping again. i hate people! i hate sales!!!